That's the truth

It hurts.That's the truth. I miss you and it hurts. I haven't been able to swallow the key. Felicia said that moving on is swalling the key and no looking back...

 I am still here kinda hoping that one day out of the blue, you choose me. My days are filled with memories of you. Your voice, your laugh, your body, etc. I can't call you. I won't but I still hope you do. I will try to hide my exciment or my surprise...

I am tired of my re-runs. I am tired of this feeling. I want to wake up and feel like I don't need you close to me. I want to dream about something else but you. I want to eat and not wish you were here. I want to stop my thoughts searching for you in hours that I shouldn't. I want you to dissapear without losing you from my life. I want to stop this need to hear you even when you are so far away.

I want you here and I can't have you. It hurts. That's the truth and I want to stop and I still can't. 

I miss you.