Sto Lat!

The letter f is missing from my keyboard. I can't type it. It doesn't work.  I have to copy and paste everytime I need to use a word that uses an f.

Life is the same. Sometimes we are missing things and until we don't get them we can complete our sentences. I am wondering when I will feel good again. Something is missing and I keep praying for something to change, for a sign, maybe a miracle...something that tells me I am in the right path.

Today was your birthday and I called you and I was so nervous. I couldn't tell you the speech I prepared within days. I don't know what I am gonna do tomorow morning. I am not allowed to miss you. I wonder how long I will wait to get an email from you or if you will call anytime soon. . How many stories I will miss after today. It's gonna be the same as when we didn't speak for months.

I wanted to sing you Sto Lat, Sto Lat but I couldn't even say anything I memorized even less a song in polish. I saw your pictures and I can't stop thinking of how good looking you are and how miserable I get sometimes because you are so far away.

How do we forget people? How do we change our feelings? when is time to move on?
I miss you a lot today.